Introspection at its finest.

First off I would like to apologise for my attitude as of recent. The holidays are never a joyous time for me. Haven't been for a while and its nothing that I am prepared to go into. So please don't inquire within about it. However that is not the only reason as to why my mood has not been at its finest. It was brought to my attension on Sunday when I was out shopping with my mom. We were at the In and out near her house and were ordering food in the drive through lane, well In and out has the guy that actually sits there and takes the order via the clipboard when they are especially busy. I was ordering the food when my mom looks at me and tells me to stop snarling at the guy. I looked at her and she siad you almost ripped his head off and he did nothing to me. I looked at her in disbelief and then asked her was I chewing him out.She nodded and we started talking. Apparantly my mood has been going down hill for the last couple of months and I have been trying to figure out when and where this took place and all of my outside factors that are adversly effecting my attitude. I came up with three deciding factors: My living conditions, My mothers treatment at home, and my financial situation. all of these factors Im not going to go into but needless to say they have signifigantly have had my attitude and disposition spiriling down in an endless loop. Hopefully all of these factors will disappear soon. So until that time please bear with me and I will say Im sorry for those who have felt the brunts of my frustration.

Toymaker